Yesterday at 9:01am it was exactly 11 months since I gave birth to Jude. This picture was taken last February on our Valentines trip to Long Beach. It is the only picture that I took while I was pregnant with Jude where I was actually trying to show that I was pregnant. Even though I have a new little one who should be here in the next couple of weeks it is still so hard to go through these anniversarys of his birth. Its hard not to imagine how big he would be or what he would look like. Its torture to think about how are life would be with him instead of without him.